1. |
Down
03:20
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I want to
Forget you
I want to
Make you feel uneasy
I want to
Forget you
As you go
Down (4x)
I’m thinking
You’re shrinking
You’ve always
Been up so high
I’ve never
Been a big girl
From this angle I can
Finally see your
Eyes(4x)
You’re Johnny
Come Quickly
I’m Sally
Mae or may not
I’ve always
Made you crazy
But you still don’t
Even make me
Hot(4x)
I want to
Forget you
I want to
Make you feel uneasy
I want to
Forget you
As you go
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2. |
Ol' Man
02:33
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I left my ol man today
But I thought about you
I thought six years could fade scars
But they’re also called “old wounds”
I left my ol man today
But I felt I’d left you
New York to Califor-ni-ay
Tell me, what’s a silly girl to do?
In my blind ambition
When I thought I knew
The best for me
I tried an intervention
And I lost my muse
Where on Earth could he be?
And maybe one night
While I’m drinking a glass of red
I’ll look up from my wrinkled hands
And I’ll see you once again.
I left my ol man today
But I cried over you
And I found myself with old clichés like
Does he cry over me too?
And I’m sorry that I left you there
In that embryonic lurch
I’m sorry that I made you cry
But I do that when I’m hurt.
And maybe one night
While I’m drinking a glass of red
I’ll look up from my wrinkled hands
And I’ll see you once again.
In my blind ambition
When I thought I knew
The best for me
I tried an intervention
And I lost my muse
Where on Earth could he be?
I left my ol man today
I left my ol man today
I left my ol man today
But I’ll be missing…….
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3. |
My Apologies
02:58
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Where does my conscience go when she’s needed the most?
I think she trusts me enough now to leave me, to vacation
On the California coast.
Meanwhile I was taken with that thing behind your eyes
And I lost track of myself somewhere trying to get you on my side
And I brace myself for her return with the covers pulled snug around my head.
As you lay next to me breathing quite some distance away in my twin bed.
And I heard the commotion as she came clamoring back, with sand on her hands screaming
“Not this way, NO! Not this way NO. You had to go and fuck it up again.”
Again
Again
Again
I think She’s lonely, my conscience.
She just wants someone to listen.
At least, that’s what She said last.
She doesn’t speak to me anymore.
She says I ignore her, She says I make fun,
She says it’s impossible to hold on to anyone.
She says that my mind is her favorite place to be,
Because the rest of my body is given away so freely.
So I’ll let you go ahead and do whatever it is that you do best
Which is ignore the fact that we made it, and tell me I’m the mess.
But the truth is that you know me, and you’d still just let me stand
And now that thing behind your eyes is gone and I see you’re just a man.
Now I must find her, My Conscience, and try to give her my apologies.
With a squint of her eyes and a purse of her lips, She’ll say
“Well, of course I’ll forgive you, you shit.”
I think She is somewhere hidden up in my hair, yes
She knows it’s so hard for me to find her in there.
But I promise I’ll find her and I’ll make amends
And probably fuck it all up in the end again.
Again
Again
Again
Again
Again.
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4. |
All Your Girls
04:55
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All your girls are crazy
All your girls are wild
They all listen to your music
As they nod at you and smile
They were all once babies
Their moms would read to them at night
And with her they would fight
Her body all their lives
All your girls are diamonds
They all wrestle with their hair
Bleeding rivers to buy face creams
To hide wrinkles that aren’t there
They were all once mountains
Bathed in summers and sighs
But father time eroded them
And polished off their smiles
Ooh
All your girls are nightmares
They remind you of your pain
With their wicked wandering whispers
Still you choose them all the same
They were all once angels
Glowing silver in the sun
But boys like you they jaded them
And wonder why they run
Oooh
All your girls are crazy
All your girls are wild
All your girls are crazy
All your girls are wild
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5. |
Ramblings
02:36
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Sometimes I want to break your neck.
Sometimes I want to lick your ear.
Sometimes I let the warm pain go.
But sometimes I let it go on for a year.
Hold me down and my feelings grow stronger
Let me go and I die.
Smack me once I bleed forever
Smack me twice I
Smile.
Like blue orchids I’m frail
But I’m always brilliant
I live strong but It’s a long, slow, tiring journey
To the dry, shriveled place we all call
Death
HA HA!
And….Sometimes I want to hold on to your warm
Sweet moist memory and
Dream a little wet dream of you.
And then crash into the powdery, billowing, protruding…..
Whatever.
Sometimes I want to juggle your testosterone in little jars of fireflies
Just to see if the light changes
Green has never really been your color but it doesn’t really matter because
I’ve always been the fat one.
And we would really rather not see THEM now would we?
Can’t stop looking, can you?
Sometimes I want to contradict your every move
And sometimes I just want to go along for the ride
And in the end, it doesn’t matter because you’ll never know what I’m feeling
Way down deep inside
And I’ve really never been this verbose
You just hang on to all the big words in order to figure me out
When it’s the little ones you have to pay attention to.
If. And. Or. But.
Sometimes I want to break your neck.
Sometimes I want to lick your ear.
Sometimes I let the warm pain go
But sometimes I’d rather drown in my fear.
And I think I’m going crazy….
*sigh* well…..anyway.
Here I go again……
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6. |
Last Call
02:34
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We’ve been making eyes all night
we brushed legs once or twice
We been talking circles round our drinks
stirring our way through the ice
But it’s the
last call for my
pillow under your head
it’s the last call for the
clothes I’d be willing to shed
Its the
last call but it’s
going going going going it’s gone
that was your last call
Now they’re playing the last song
I can see you humming along
and I would be humming the same song too
If I wasn’t busy mentally undressing you
Its the
last call for my pillow under your head
it’s the last call for the clothes I’d be willing to shed
It’s the last call
but its going going going going it’s gone
that was your last call.
Now your eyes are looking at mine
I am trying to see through the wine
but the whiskey keeps getting in my way
so I think we should continue this another day
cause it’s the
last call for my pillow under your head
it’s the last call
for the clothes I’d be willing to shed
it’s the last call but its
going going going going going going going going
it’s gone
that was your last call
mmmmm....
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7. |
Naked Day Alone
02:17
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I am unafraid of the winter that's coming this year.
I'm not scared of the long nights of starless skies.
I won't shiver in the presence of a heavy winter's snow
cause the birth of the sun will make it all worthwhile.
I will shed my clothes when the birch trees shake off their winter white
I will don my gown of leafy gold
cause heavy coats and chunky boots are meant to keep you warm
but nothin beats a naked day alone.
Chorus:
Cause up is tough
Knowing you'll have to come down.
But there's nothing wrong
with holding on
Sometimes you laugh at things that days throw in your way
exaspirate at stupid things you own
and people will still love you
though they'll never understand
that nothin beats a naked day alone
no nothin beats a naked day alone.
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8. |
Fall Apart
04:08
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I never felt so alone as I
Did on Mission Street, when I
Saw you walk by
Tryin’ to be all discreet
You knew I was there, yeah I
Saw you hesitate
You paused in the walk way
I noticed you
Slow your gait.
Why did I leave
The most exciting thing I knew
Why did I swallow you down
If the pieces were still whole
Why did it take me three tries
To break my heart.
I guess before I glue myself together
I’ll have to fall apart
I was almost past the tempest on that
Friday night but on Saturday
The rain came back again
When I said “One More Time”
I was holding fast to that
Last piece of you
but surrendered it that moment you smiled
we blew kisses as I, As I drove away
and I can’t remember why
Why did I leave
The most exciting thing I knew
Why did I swallow you down
If the pieces were still whole
Why did it take me three tries
To break my heart.
I guess before I glue myself together
I’ll have to fall apart
I’ve never been more behind you
As when you were watching me leave
Sometimes you can tell an act of love
By how much it makes you bleed.
Babe I just want for you to be happy
But that’s not gonna happen with me
No that’s not gonna happen with me
Why did I leave
The most exciting thing I knew
Why did I swallow you down
If the pieces were still whole
Why did it take me three tries
To break my heart.
I guess before I glue myself together
I’ll have to fall apart
I guess before I glue myself together
I’ll have to fall apart
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9. |
Michael
03:06
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Trekking steady in my blue jeans
Over California hills of velveteen
Never thought I’d fall victim to my dreams
But I’ve been jaded by the chase
But you’re a welcome distraction as you sleep along the river
With your head upon my shoulder and your name
Wet upon my mouth
Chorus
She said you came from mountains
But I say you came from the stars
Michael I would wander to the river
If just for us it was just ours. (2x)
Doo doo (Rocky Raccoon style)
And you speak, as you lay dreaming of the songs that you will sing
And you remind me of my longing for the very same thing
My dreams, they are so lucid, that is until I look away
But your squinted smile brings me focus and I see that
We’ll all be okay.
Chorus
She said you came from mountains
But I say you came from the stars
Michael I would wander to the river
If just for us it was just ours. (2x)
Doo doo (Rocky Raccoon style)
Bridge
And your river lullabies
As your stars wave us on by
Yeah your river lullabies
As your stars wave us on by
And you lay your pillow next to me as we kissed under the Pleiades
I am built from memories such as these
and we’ve already got so many.
Chorus
She said you came from mountains
But I say you came from the stars
Michael I would wander to the river
If just for us it was just ours. (2x)
Doo doo (Rocky Raccoon style)
Trekking steady in my blue jeans
Over California hills of velveteen
Never thought I’d fall victim to my dreams
But I’ve been jaded by the chase
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10. |
Falter
03:45
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Life Hurts
And in the meantime, you falter
You search for somebody to love
You question why you can’t bring the ocean to your feet
You’re not lonely, you just don’t know where to start.
And I know why you can’t see tomorrow
It seems so much farther away
But I promise, if you hold your heart in your hand
It’ll be that much harder, to throw it away.
And If, for some reason you do lose your love
And you’ve buried your faith in the ground
Don’t drop to your knees, lift your eyes and look around
I promise there’ll be someone to lift you when you’re down
I know why you can’t feel the waves at your feet
You still have your tennis shoes on
And you have been running over mountainous land
So, take them off and let the cold waves
Bury them in the sand
Hey you,
I know why you falter
You’re searching for someone to love
You finally see, you have the whole world at your feet
Now you’re lonely, and you know it’s time to start.
Now you’re lonely and you know it’s time to start.
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11. |
Just A Touch
02:53
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I understand existence isn’t always fair
I know it may continue even if I’m not there
I’ve got this tragic smile so I can make it through today
Cause when you bust it on down to the marrow
There is no other way
Chorus
Every now and then when the pressure is too much
I open up my skin and I bleed
Just a touch
Just a touch
Just a little bit of bleeding
Just a touch
Just to know that I’m still in here somewhere
My skin holds me together because my ambition is so frail
And I stretch it to its limits
And I dare it to fail
I’ve tried some meditation, I’ve tried writing it all down
But the tension never lessens in fact it brings it to a crown
Chorus
Every now and then when the pressure is too much
I open up my skin and I bleed
Just a touch
Just a touch
Just a little bit of bleeding
Just a touch
Just to know that I’m still in here somewhere
We only get two reactions, one is fight and one is flight
I’m always looking for other options
But nothing ever feels right and I’m always testing boundaries
So I can practice using my head
But it always ends with my fists up
Or my wings spread
Chorus
Every now and then when the pressure is too much
I open up my skin and I bleed
Just a touch
Just a touch
Just a little bit of bleeding
Just a touch
Just to know that I’m still in here somewhere
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12. |
Lil' Toys
03:23
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Come tomorrow we will wake up to the clean slate skies
and I will look into your sleepy morning eyes.
But now I kiss your lids as you breath heavy between my legs and
You laugh, roll over and say “It’s three o’clock in the morning, Kiddo.”
I blew up when you said I can’t feel
You ran away when I hit you squarely in the ego
You didn’t like it when I said you don’t fuck well
Went out and bought me one of those crazy little toys they sell
Oooh and it feels so good
And I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you feel uneasy.
I didn’t mean to make you feel uneasy.
Chorus:
Just remember I’ve got to breathe sometimes
Got to support my battle cry
That’s the moment you can kick dust in my eyes
When you can take me by surprise
You crashed at two thirty left me screaming at the dishes in the sink
Left me crazy didn’t give me a chance to tell you everything I think
I know you’re perfect but I can’t make you listen to something you won’t hear
Only pain between us but it’s hard to see me through your fear.
And I must insist that I do feel
And I’ll tread softly next time I’m dancing on your ego
These little toys, you know they have good intentions yeah
They’re just a small extension of what makes you feel uneasy.
Chorus
Just remember we’ve got to cry sometimes
Don’t turn your back this is a compromise
The easiest answer is the hardest to fulfill
It takes a lot of balls to apologize
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Emily Zisman San Francisco
Emily Zisman is a talented singer songwriter born and raised in the San Francisco Bay Area. Since picking up the guitar at the tender age of eight Emily’s musical journey has taken her all over the world. She has graced the stages up and down both sides of the United States and has performed internationally at festivals in Europe. ... more
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